[J] Diary of a Madman.

[Escreon]

The following text is written on various pieces of paper dotted around Escreon's room.

((Text in italics and black is supposed to be scribbled out, but legible. I don't know how to strikethrough text with BBCode...))


Escreon says I should write some things down. This kind of breakdown can mess up memories, and when he's gone I can think about this stuff in case I need it or breakdown... --Just look at me, I can't even write properly. Repeating myself, can't think of a better word than 'stuff'--

Since Maralaya kept my there for those years I could barely think... I couldn't do anything... Escreon helped me a little after a while. We started communicating through thoughts, rather than words, because he doesn't understand the language. --Unless I was just too stupid to understand. Incompatable with language just as I'm an incompatible Frileyana.--

Escreon helped me to understand some things... the power I was tapping into... the reason I was 'born' with nothing... --The reason I'm nothing. A pathetic imitation of true life, just a shadow of Escreon.--

He explained Mesyshen, the old wars, Frileyana Playent... Maralaya.
I must keep it to myself though.

He won't let me tap truly into Mesyshen however... he doesn't want me to rely on it, I'm supposed to return to my necrotic arts to truly recover. --He won't let me access true power. Despite what he put me through. Despite his screwing up creating me as what I am, I'm not allowed to access his power.--

I've been training. With his help, I'm regaining my old power... I'm going to return to what I was.

[Escreon]

I managed to leave the hall today... the first time in a long time.

I was wandering around the Temple of Ages, and met Viktor, Angelicus and Red. I followed them around for a while. We killed a lot of Verata's apprentices. Before I would have been very happy about that. Now: Nothing.

It was a good oppurtunity to test what has happened to my skills. They have suffered horrificly. I can't summon the meanest bone horror or fiend, I have to settle for extremely weak minions. I get tired from maintaining just four of them. I managed to summon ten, and then almost fell unconscious and had to relinquish any and all control.

I tapped into Mesyshen.

I did not mean to do it, but I was in the middle of combat and I could barely do anything. My once incredible necrotic power had become nothing, and... Mesyshen still... comforts me. Escreon and Mesyshen were the only things that saved me from complete insanity after the years with Maralaya. Escreon has been through the same thing, he can relate, and Mesyshen... Mesyshen is just so perfect, so pure, so...right.

--I should be able to wield Mesyshen anyway. With much more power than I can now. But, of course, Escreon f**k the Frileyana Playent up.--

It was out of control. The first time was small, and I scolded myself for it. I was able to stop it by myself, and I told myself not to do it again.
The second time was more difficult, Mesyshen had to take the power away herself. By this time I was in somewhat of a trance, I started revealed her secrets. Explaining her existence...
I managed to stop this and make them dismiss it purely as my rambling insanity.

The third time was bad. I had just managed to summon a great amount of minions, and the strain was too much. We were fighting the soldiers of Verata, and I knew I should have cared more...
I began assaulting thier minds. Converting the tiny pieces of soul within the minions into energy, and then adding it to my own. I was about to unleash all of the power I had... it probably would have killed me, and the friends that were with me. Mesyshen punished me. Mentally assaulted me, robbed me of consciousness... and she almost detached our connection completely. I was almost driven insane at that point, I would have killed myself, had I the energy to move. Fortunately, Escreon came for a breif moment. I think I set off the Alingal. Mesyshen forgave me, and she resumed the connection.

I will not use her energy again.

[Escreon]

I met Rakk... I've not seen him in a while. He didn't seem to know how to deal with my since... he didn't know how to deal with me. He gave me some money, so typical of Rakk, throw money at problems and they go away. I bought new armour... Escreon's happy with me, says I'm doing well. He enchanted my new armour with some sort of Mesyshen power as a reward for leaving the hall without him, then he rushed off.
Now I don't have anything to do, so I'm just writing this...

[fyn]

In the depths of the Hall of The Damned Velion stands in Escreons room, reading. He then begins making notes and muttering to himself. He turns to the wall...and loks at the pallid yellow eye that only just manages to flick shut as he glances at it.

'I know you see me,' he syas to the wall, to the Living entity that is the Hall. Tell Cain we need to talk, urgently. '

Velion gathers up the papers and strides off down the corridor towards Cain's chambers.
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[Escreon]

Velion hears Escreon's voice within his mind in a curious way. It is as if he is forming Escreon's words with his own thoughts, only with Escreon's voice. As this happens, Velion feels a little of what must be Escreon's emotions seeping through the link made between their minds, he seems a little angry, but mostly extremely worried and somewhat panicky.

<...Do you mind telling me what you were doing in my room?>

[Escreon]

There are about twenty pieces of paper in various places around the room all saying essentially the exact same thing. Some are ripped to pieces, some look as if they have been burnt, some are screwed up into little balls and hidden in various places around the room. Except for one or two different words, each of these pieces of paper says this:

Escreon is just an evil bastard. Nothing more than a negligent, incompetent, selfish, sadistic BASTARD. He owes me so much for what he made me. Owes me TOO much. Because of HIS mistake. HIS botchery of the Frileyana Playent. It is his fault that I am what I am. A pathetic excuse for life. An imitation, a fake. I had no history, no knowledge, I would have actually died had it not been for Shaden, and because of me she’s dead. No… no, in fact, it’s not because of me. It’s because of him. If it wasn’t for him, I’d have the memories, I’d have the knowledge, and Shaden would never have met me, and would never have ended up dead. Then after years, he decides to check up on the Frileyana he butchered and abandoned, but he screws that up as well. Instead of merging our spirits, or rather his and my imitation of one, he possessed my body, scaring off the few friends I’d managed to acquire. And he didn’t just do it once, he kept on doing it, and eventually he let… her in. WHAT AN IDIOT! How hard can it be to make sure you aren’t followed? HOW HARD CAN IT BE? But she got in… and she sent me… there.

Years I waited. Years of hunger, years of pain, but mostly, and worst of all, years of absolute nothingness. At least hunger and pain were feelings, and no matter what it is, feeling something is infinitely better than feeling nothing whatsoever. But eventually I got out, but now I’m a wreck. Getting better, but still a wreck. Before I couldn’t leave the room, could barely speak, barely even move… I’ll give Escreon some credit, he helped me out of that a little, but only to explain the power I had and then say I COULDN’T USE IT! AFTER EVERYTHING HE’S DONE, I CAN’T DO THE ONE THING THAT ALL THIS WAS FOR! THE REASON I’M NOTHING IS FOR MESYSHEN, AND I’M NOT ALLOWED ACCESS TO HER POWER!

Escreon is a cruel, sadistic bastard. And once I’m stronger, he won’t be the only one.

[fyn]

VElion does his best to push away the link with Escreon. HEreads the notes as he walks, muttering to himself.

HE finds Cain's chambers locked and barred. He reaches out with his mind, to his minions that watch over his places of refuge and secret laboratories..CAin is looking for him..folowing his scent. Velion becomes alarmed. IF Cain were to discover any of VElions 'little projects'... Best to meet sooner rather than later...Velion takes his Raven signet and opens a portal to where he and CAin an talk...

((To be continued in Disturbed Isolation RP stories thread..sorry this is a journal isn't it? Breach of Forum etiquette..have deducted 100 points from House Slytherin))
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[Escreon]

((Hehe, s'okay
You did it to the character description thread as well.))

[fyn]

VElion watches Cainand grows suddenly angry.

'The notes implied this creature is not Escreon..that is the name of the spirit that inhabits him. That the power he uses is called MEsyshen..and that this Escreon is using the body you see here to regain its powwer to do..well, who knows what?'

'This body is just a vessel for some creature caled Escreon...and it uses this power..channles it through the body. As such this creature has very little control over itself. Only the little that the possessing spirit, Escreon allows. It can alter this 'things' mind, memories and control his body whenever it chooses'.

'My experiments...my experiments into dissection are well known..I discuss them openly enough. I can show you my notes...I am merely trying to create better minions, to give them everlasting life and the means to reproduce..naturally. What about yours, Cain? I have concealed my knowledge of your deliveries. Who is being secretive here? Not me...'

'I have been travelling up and down these lands..tracking Escreon, or the rumours of him. I have been tracking the undead in Kryta, trying to help Cedric. I have ordered my own sister to intercede on Cedrics behalf and she nearly died doing. PLease do not question my actions..I have ben tireless in this guild's defence..TIRELESS. You think its easy to create alliances between guilds and find new recruits when we are seen as madmen, or worse, jokers...? I will do what i think is best to make this guild survive and grow stronger..'

'Kill Escreon and we survive. LEt this thing live and we all suffer. This is not like Enoch's madness, something to be tolerated..This is a threat. Plain and simple..'
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Quote: 'A good girlfriend should be smarter than all your friends..but not as smart as you' My friend Ian.

[Escreon]

I need Escreon to come.
He hasn't come in a while, and right now I need him more than ever. Maralaya is loose in this world, and I simply have no idea what she's capable of. The barrier that Escreon told me about should have kept her out, but I think it is at least restricting her powers. If she was at full strength we'd probably all just be dead.

I managed to explain things away without revealing anything of Mesyshen or Escreon. All I've revealed of Maralaya is that I dislike her, and she put me... there. I've put strong wards in my room now. No-one should be able to come in without my permission, and if anyone does manage to do so I've set up a mental link, so I'll know instantly.

Velion is a fool. An arrogant, power-hungry, overconfident fool. He's making deals with Maralaya. He will receive nothing from her, she will use him and then she'll kill him, unless she finds it amusing to unleash him on some poor, unsuspecting, undeveloped world. And he has the nerve to sa that I am a threat.

Luckily, the rest of the guild act like they believe what I have said, and most don't seem to think I'm a direct danger to them. There are, of course, those who will still want to harness the powers of Mesyshen, as they have seen me and Escreon use some of them. These people will have to be treated with great caution. The guild is currently planning to destroy Maralaya. I can't tell them that it can't be done, that risk revealing Escreon's secrets, much mustn't be known to this world.

This is why I need Escreon. I need to know what Maralaya is currently capable of, with the barrier in place. If she has even a fraction of her normal power, I can't let anyone approach her at any cost. Until he visits, I'll have to just go along with their plans.

[Escreon]

Escreon finally came, but it hurt both of us. A lot. The barrier is growing stronger, which can only be a good thing he said.She's still been seen. I've still heard stories about her, despite the barrier. All the barrier does now that she's in is restrict me even more from Mesyshen. He didn't do or say anything else. There have been no developments regarding Maralaya so far...

[Escreon]

Cain has become our leader. I don't know how it happened, all I know is that I have not seen Dynamo for a while. I do not know Cain's intentions. Obviously, he is leader because of his desire for power, but I do not know what he will do next to fuel his desire. Considering his current status, he knows far too much about Escreon and Mesyshen than I would like him to... but I cannot remove his memories.
There are several scribblings, and pieces of the paper have been burnt away.
I CANNOT AFFECT HIS MEMORIES OR ANY PART OF HIS MIND AT ALL. The security in this room has been greatly improved. As well as being within Cain's necrotic metropolis, this room is within a little box of my own. My necrotic, mesmeric and Mesyshen arts combined. No-one will enter without my permission.

[Escreon]

I have now Ascended, become Weh no Su, and learnt to create the strongest undead creature in existance. This is the moment of truth. I shall pray to a statue of Grenth as well, just as a precaution. It is finally time for me to do what I have always wanted... needed to do.

I am going to bring back Shaden Nitel.

[Escreon]

I did it. I actually did it. Shaden Nitel is beside me as I write this.

It hurt. A lot. But I did it. ...I've never felt so much physical pain, but I held on. I have never felt anything worse than keeping hold of that connection when Mesyshen was taking it away, and the state of my body didn't help much, but I held on, and once I was done, she left me with my connection. I'm not sure why...

Escreon will be sent to punish me though. I just know it. He is Mesyshen's son, and he is possibly more against abusing the connection than she is herself. But he is not going to take Shaden away. I don't care if I have to fight him. Sure, he has more experience in combat, more power with Mesyshen, but I'm more used to this body and this world, and he will be weakened by the barrier.

I don't want to do it, but if he tries to hurt Shaden, I will kill him. If he doesn't though, I will take whatever he gives me.

I know I was wrong, that is why I have kept the wounds Mesyshen gave me, as a reminder of the pain of holding on to that connection. But they do not understand. They do not know what Shaden did, what she means.

But she is finally back. And we are finally fighting side by side once more.

No-one will take her away.

[Escreon]

Escreon is angry... very angry.

Phen did some necrotic technique which sensed the power within my blood, and she exposed some sort of raw link to Mesyshen. Mesyshen's energy flooded into her... I'm sure it was too much. Then Escreon came.

I didn't imagine he could really get that angry. I understand that a Shenyed person had some of Meyshen's energy but... I honestly thought he might kill her.

He had so much anger, and then she was the way he channeled it.
Shaden.
He was ripping her body apart, and he was ripping the mind from her body. He claims to be a soldier of Mesyshen, and then he does this!

That transcends any restrictions towards affecting a mind, HE WAS REMOVING IT ALL TOGETHER! Mesyshen cannot have allowed it... he was wrong... just wrong.

I managed to regain control of my body to protect Shaden... but Escreon isn't happy.

I'm worried.